Wednesday, March 4, 2009

I realise

I think i'll be mixed up in my words.

But I know deep down, I'm really sorry to friends.

Friends who made an effort to accept the way I am.

Friends who share similar thinking.

Yet, I have hurt these people who try to make me a better person.

I'm sorry. And I say it with guilt.

Guilt has always been bothering me. Never goes away, stays on like a shadow.

Thank you for pointing out my flaws, my weaknesses, in hopes that I'll realise.

I promise that I'll try my best, wait, no, promises can be broken. I will do my best.


It was a good time of reflection over the weekend, over the past few days.

How God wants me to realise the things that I do not.

Not just how I handle situations, but in the actions and whether words tally.


Deep down, the confidence lost. Screwing things up.

But, I just realised minutes ago on the song we sang.


None But Jesus

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore



This song has been going through my mind the past few days. And the pre-chorus just strucked me on how selfish I've been.

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose


When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

God, Thank you for making me realise of the insecurities I face and the realization that I must accept and carry on for You are the One whom I hang to.

Thank you for everything.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Genting

Anyone interested in going for Genting on

14 March (Saturday)

stay one night till

15 March (Sunday)


Pls let me know....

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Thanks kor. You're the best!

Certain friends touch your heart and you can't stop thinking of them.

That is the kind of friend you are.

Far yet so near,

simple yet so precious.

=)




This goes out to all of my friends!

Especially close ones!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

A Week That Was

I think I just got scammed.

Update:

And I think I know why..

It all happened because 'someone up there'

wants to hit on me real hard that I've been spending too much money in 2008.

And he wants me to start saving! And perhaps tithe more often too.

But I still shouldn't have been too dumb. Hope it wasn't hypnosis or sth.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

CNY Update

CNY has been real fulfilling this year. Let me list out the places I've been over a week!

  • Sunday: CNY Reunion dinner @ Cousin's place. A session of poker of which I nearly won RM6 but because my cousin wanted me to go in, I went and didn't get my RM6. Then, I stayed over, my first in many years! 3am, went to McDs for makan and all. Left the house in the morning before everyone woke up.
  • Monday: My family usually heads to Kepong for my dad's side gathering. But this year since my dad's cousin bought a new house, we went to Kota Kemuning instead! My my, the house was huge! And best part is, it overlooks a golf course, so people were playing and all. Cousins played fusball, I didnt, instead was made to play the piano. Quite old one. Caught up with uncles, talked to an Architect who was telling me that Maths is a good career, etc, etc. I didnt know who was my uncle's son, step-son, till the next few days.
  • Tuesday: Today's mom side gathering. We headed to Malacca, Was supposed to be at my grandfather's place, but the house became too small for my family. We went for lunch at my mom's counsins place at first. Played poker with my sister and cousin using rocks as chips! I lost. Boohoo. Last time seeing this bunch of cousins for four years. Ambivalent. Happy and sad. Sad because no more headache speaking Mandarin to them! Haha. My mom's lil sister's baby son is so adorable! His name is.. errr. Ju Yin or sth like that. Sigh, I'll really miss my cousins alot when I leave for the US.


  • Wednesday: We left Orna Resort after lunch. And in the evening, I went to Aunty Sharon's house. Only then did I found out that my new cousin's name is Colin. No idea the surname but he's a real nice guy. He's tall and I assumed that he was around my age, only to find out that he's ONLY form 1! And he's a good tennis player. Caught up with him the following week to know that he won a tennis tournament.

  • Thursday: Today, I was fixing my computer, now owned by my sister because I have a laptop. Reformatted and all, set up the LAN cable so that it can become a gaming PC. In the evening, I decided to go to my cousins place again after lunch @ Weng Kean's house. Stayed up late again, this time more of hanging out with the younger ones. Played in between, lost, played blackjack, so so. But I really did have lots of fun. Close to midnight, taught Shaun, Sarah, Shanie how to play Gin Rummy. Shaun's really good at learning new games! I think he already got the gist of Catan. Sigh, those two are already Form Ones.... Now the drama starts at 3am. We all went out to McDs again brought by Aunty Jane and Amelyn's bf, MC, they call him. I ordered Ayam Goreng McD. RM10.40. Paid RM50.40. Didnt get my change back! And I only realised later when I went back to my cousin's house! So ended up doing loads of calling, and eventually the outlet responded at 6am. Mind you, I wasnt sleeping yet playing blackjack. So, they checked their system and found the extra RM40. And the next day continues.
  • Friday: In the morning, I went out to collect my RM40, but I had to burn RM10 just for transport. I was called to go for a surprise birthday party for MIRIAM! The lunch was cool. The price of the lunch wasn't. 50 bucks for lunch aint too good in my budget. But, nonetheless, the fellowship was good la! Went back, tired, getting ready for Open House the next day.
  • Saturday: Yes, I opened my house for Boys Brigade. Around 25 came. Whoah, I had a very 'fun' time trying to cool my friends because they expected the full company to come over to their place. But I guess things had to follow plan. And, I found out that SEANS's Hse is AMAZING! I wanna go there later. And the day took up the whole time. I remember doing something that Saturday night, oh, I went to Alex's house! Gambled, yes I know its not healthy, but I won! =) Playing 3 cards.
  • Sunday: Short church service in the morning because I had to head to KLCC for my Cornell Alumni Interview with Chenchow! Met a new person from Cornell too, his name is Han. Real nice people. But the interview was really short! Haha, nonetheless, it was good. Last night, at 11pm, I decided to open my house on Sunday! Last minute, but the plan did work out! The people who came were:
  • Pn Devi & Pn Mary (Teachers)
  • Hin Seng, Li Wei & Dad
  • Shangari
  • Gary & Adeline
  • Four girls from my class : Mimi, Inoi, Aisya, Nasuha
  • Alex
  • Aunty Katherine
Haha, such a small number, eh? But I had lots of fun talking to them! Especially watching the antics of my big bro, Gary & GF. Haha, both of them are really adorable and I pray that they'll have a really good time together all the way till I get back from the US in 4 years time. Maybe they'll get married?? Haha, I surely hope so. Thank you so much for all who came! You guys rock!

And that concludes my week, good week I believe? I do know that I'll really miss these times.. especially Boys Brigade, my close friends, and my COUSINS! Shaun, Shanie, Sarah, Stacie, I'm sure I got close to you all this year, when I stayed over. A decision I'll never regret. Hope to keep in touch with all you people through webcam k! I'm already feeling the pinch of leaving Malaysia in 6 months to come.

Someone please find me a cure...



Friday, January 23, 2009

From Readers Digest

Yuk Chhang's Journey to Justice
One man's fight to ensure the voice of justice is finally heard in Cambodia
Brian Eads


       Gunning his SUV down dirt tracks flanked by rice paddies in Battambang, in northwestern Cambodia, Youk Chhang trembled with rage. It was autumn 1995, and he was about to confront the man responsible for the deaths of his brother-in-law and niece, and the disappearance of his uncle.

        Chhang pictured the man he was looking for: tough and strong, Chhoung had been the chief of a village where families from the capital Phnom Penh had been forcibly relocated during Pol Pot's Khmer Rouge regime during the 1970s. Under Chhoung's brutal rule, Chhang and his family suffered horrendous privation. The teenage Chhang watched helplessly as his brother-in-law and niece starved to death. A favourite uncle, Keo Chhoeun, disappeared and was never seen again.

        Now, almost two decades later, the tall and strong Cambodian-American was back. If he will fight, I will beat him up, Chhang thought.

      He found the former village chief sitting bare-chested outside a small house weaving a basket. He was old and skinny, no longer the imposing figure of Chhang's memory.

          ''I lived in your village during Pol Pot,'' Chhang told him. The chief said he didn't remember.

        Dissatisfied, Chhang decided he wanted to uncover the truth about those years – to confront the past and lay his terrible memories and those of thousands of Cambodians to rest.

     ''This,'' says Chhang, gesturing towards the image on his computer screen in his office in Phnom Penh, ''is the only photo I have from my childhood.'' The black-and-white snapshot shows the wedding of his sister Tithsorye, in Phnom Penh in 1968. Chhang, in shorts, is one of eight people pictured. A decade later, the other seven were dead.

        They were among approximately 1.7 million Cambodians, over 20 percent of the population, who lost their lives between 1975 and 1979. Pol Pot died a decade ago while hiding in the jungle, and none of the surviving senior leaders was brought to trial or punished. Indeed, many have lived openly and freely in Cambodia.

       For more than a decade, Chhang has worked tirelessly to remedy this by assembling a unique historical archive of the Khmer Rouge era. He hopes that this unvarnished record of what happened will provide vital evidence for prosecutions.

       Sometime this year, five senior Khmer Rouge leaders will finally be tried by a special tribunal – the Extraordinary Chambers in the Courts of Cambodia (ECCC). ''We are the logical conclusion to Youk Chhang's work,'' says the ECCC's co-prosecutor Robert Petit. ''We can show the Cambodian people how justice can be done.''

        But Chhang's mission hasn't ended. He is committed to teaching Cambodians about their troubled history and helping them heal their deep psychological wounds.

        Youk Chhang's extraordinary journey was only beginning when the invading Vietnamese army drove Pol Pot from power in 1979. ''Suddenly all the Khmer Rouge disappeared from the village,'' Chhang remembers.

         His father had died when he was a boy, and all his older male relatives were dead or missing. Now, at 17, he returned to Phnom Penh with his mother and other surviving relatives.

            But life in the desolate capital offered little hope. At his mother's urging, Chhang smuggled himself into Thailand and ended up at Khao-I-Dang, a refugee camp near the Cambodian border.

         Chhang taught himself English by playing Scrabble and in 1987, aged 26, was accepted for resettlement in the United States. He got a job making Venetian blinds in Dallas, Texas, polished his English and enrolled at the University of Texas to study political science.

         While at university, he joined a campaign to persuade the US government to help bring Khmer Rouge leaders to trial, taking part in demons-trations and handing out leaflets. Few people were interested. ''People said: ‘You from Cambodia? Did it really happen?' Then they walked away,'' Chhang recalls. ''I could not force people to believe unless I could prove it.''

          In September 1991, after graduating, he returned to Cambodia for almost two years to work as an electoral officer for United Nations-sponsored elections. Then, in 1994, Yale University secured funding under the US government's newly passed Cambodian Genocide Justice Act to document the Khmer Rouge's mass killings and hired Chhang as its field representative.

           Chhang wanted desperately to contribute, but returning to Cambodia would come at a cost. He had married an Asian-American, and they had two children. The couple agreed that his wife should stay in Texas with their children. Henceforth, Chhang would be a long-distance husband and father. ''I miss my kids every single minute,'' he says. ''They are my strength, my discipline, my commitment.''


-Picture taken by myself, Kenneth, during my missions trip to Phnom Penh, 2008
I really really salute Chhang for the effort & contribution he has made for his own people.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Comments, comments!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.




The past few days have been such of a reflection period.

Of friends, life, spiritual life, and just everything there is to living.

Princeton - Down, MIT - Down, Cornell & hopefully, Yale & Columba left

Interviews are really a good time to reflect on what your heart desires most out of life

I feel fired after watching YesMan

It's pretty much gotta do with what Life is all about

Spontaneity, Fun & Love

Princeton Alum advised me to apply for Financial Aid so that I can do whatever major I want, whatever career I choose to venture

Now, should I?

Or should I follow whats already been laid out on this path.

What say you?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I really think that..

God has a plan for me

To serve

To serve anywhere where there's children

To serve His children

To serve and impact young lives

In the hope that they will too serve for His children


I think He has placed a burden in my heart to work with children

Looking at the opportunities he has placed at my path

From Sunday School Leader to Boys Brigade to Cambodia to OKR Ministry

To many more to come


I pray and hope that this is what I think God wants for me

Because the sight of children smiling just melts my heart to the core

I pray that they will yearn to learn, to live and to walk the path in His name


I hope that someone will eventually take over me

Someone that God has touched through me

That would just be so

Awesome.


Thank You Lord

For So many things

For So many realizations

For Friends that care

And Adults too!

For LIFE

For opportunities

For family

For a desire to serve

For abilities given to serve

For the person that has brought me into this walk


Thank You.


Dakila'ng O Diyos
Awitan Ang Dakilang Diyos
Awitan Natin
Dakila Ka O Diyos

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Applications

Cali-Berkley - Check
Columbia - Check
Stanford - Check
NYU - Check
Princeton - Check
Yale - Check
Minnesota - Check
Wesleyan - Check

And I'm only Left with!

MIT
Cornell
Wisconsin


Woohooo!


HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Transcend


Oooh, I like the sound of my new HDD!

Transcend USA!

Went shopping for it with Shangari @ Digital Mall.

We walked so many times to so many shops of which finally i found this baby at the top floor of the mall!

Nonetheless, it's a good bargain!

2 years International Warranty

RM250 for 250 GB

That's RM1 for 1GB!

And it has 'gaya'!
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