I realise

I think i'll be mixed up in my words.

But I know deep down, I'm really sorry to friends.

Friends who made an effort to accept the way I am.

Friends who share similar thinking.

Yet, I have hurt these people who try to make me a better person.

I'm sorry. And I say it with guilt.

Guilt has always been bothering me. Never goes away, stays on like a shadow.

Thank you for pointing out my flaws, my weaknesses, in hopes that I'll realise.

I promise that I'll try my best, wait, no, promises can be broken. I will do my best.


It was a good time of reflection over the weekend, over the past few days.

How God wants me to realise the things that I do not.

Not just how I handle situations, but in the actions and whether words tally.


Deep down, the confidence lost. Screwing things up.

But, I just realised minutes ago on the song we sang.


None But Jesus

In the quiet, in the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose

There is no one else for me
None but Jesus
Crucified to set me free
Now I live to bring Him praise

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore



This song has been going through my mind the past few days. And the pre-chorus just strucked me on how selfish I've been.

When You call I won’t refuse
Each new day again I’ll choose


When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

God, Thank you for making me realise of the insecurities I face and the realization that I must accept and carry on for You are the One whom I hang to.

Thank you for everything.